Happy Birthday
Today's been rough.
I don't know how else to say it.
I don't have the energy to put on my happy face. And even if I did, I don't have the heart. My head is so full of images...my heart so heavy. Today my brother would've been 28.
And I'm tired of hearing the platitudes.
"He wouldn't want you to be sad."
"He'd want you to be happy."
"He's still with you....in your heart."
Exactly. He's still with me, in my heart. And one day of 365...if I miss him more than usual...I'm sure he'd understand.
He was my best friend. We were opposite sides of the same coin. We were so much alike in look and demeanor that it was uncanny...except he was four years younger...and gone way too soon.
It's hard to believe that I haven't seen him in 18 years. I close my eyes and it feels like yesterday.
I'll smile again tomorrow. But today...I'm just gonna miss him.
I don't know how else to say it.
I don't have the energy to put on my happy face. And even if I did, I don't have the heart. My head is so full of images...my heart so heavy. Today my brother would've been 28.
And I'm tired of hearing the platitudes.
"He wouldn't want you to be sad."
"He'd want you to be happy."
"He's still with you....in your heart."
Exactly. He's still with me, in my heart. And one day of 365...if I miss him more than usual...I'm sure he'd understand.
He was my best friend. We were opposite sides of the same coin. We were so much alike in look and demeanor that it was uncanny...except he was four years younger...and gone way too soon.
It's hard to believe that I haven't seen him in 18 years. I close my eyes and it feels like yesterday.
I'll smile again tomorrow. But today...I'm just gonna miss him.
posted by katsmeow at 5:39 PM
2 Comments:
I'm with you in that I too can't bear all the "she's in a better place" blah blah blahs. Dammit, I want those I've lost HERE. With ME. NOW.
Sorry for your loss (which is almost as bad, but it's heartfelt)
Thank you... And no, it's not even almost that bad... Because you're not minimizing the pain...you're just expressing regret. I deal much better with that... :-)
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